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09:14 - Sept. 03, 2003 i thought it was going to be really tough, that i'd be miserable being straight while those around me twisted and their pupils dilated, but actually, no. i did drink a lot of Sol, but i actually savoured being in control and not having one of those brain trips or sleepless nights or comedowns. those days have been and gone for me. when i was about 13, i wrote in my diary that i wanted to experience everything. in my naivete i didn't even specify that i didn't want to do anything that would fuck me up, that i didn't want to experience pain or mental agony or anything negative. in a romantic, foolish way, i just wanted to try everything once. just to KNOW. as if knowledge were everything. i don't want to say i know better know. i don't. i've just learnt my lesson on drugs. there was a time and a place and this just isn't it anymore. i'm a lot pickier now about the things i want to experience. so, who wants a joint?
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