09:25 - Jun. 03, 2003
waking up and getting up has never been easy
I thought getting out of bed in the mornings was going to be easier in the summer. It's totally NOT. I am becoming this apathetic drone who goes to the same place every day and laughs internally at all the people I hate here. Ugh.
When I wake up in the mornings I'm having to remind myself of all the things I'm looking forward to... more than anything at the moment it's our holiday. On the bus into work I read about the Grand Canyon, Death Valley, Bishop, Bodie, Las Vegas, Palm Springs, San Luis Obispo, San Francisco, Yosemite, Los Angeles... I picture myself there, driving for hours, stopping at motels... I envisage the photos that we'll ask strangers to take of us at sunset at the Grand Canyon.. I imagine that "run out of money" feeling at the casino in Vegas... I think what I might like to order in a diner for breakfast and how the foreign money will feel in my hand.
These things make me feel alive.
I booked our hotel in Vegas last night. I can't wait... but at the same time I can because the waiting is keeping me going.
